Dear Eating Disorder, You just can’t let me be, can you? I am writing to you because I am devastated. You cling onto me, and I guess a little I cling onto you too - scared of being alone. But I know now this is an unhealthy co-dependent relationship. You are constantly talking at me. …
I want my life back!
It follows a short ’Anecdote of my Recovery’. Every little bit of hope counts and I want to be sharing my journey, as well as break down the stigma - I need to tell you about this. I hope the following will be a breakthrough on my journey to health. Something unusual happened the other …
An analogy on impulsiveness.
Sometimes I feel a pressure building up within myself, and I wonder if it has to do with me wanting to live up to high standards at all times. There is a lot of "all-or-nothing" type thinking happening for me. Of course, there are situations when my eating disorder creeps in, and it does not …
Always expecting the worst – some thoughts on accepting uncertainty.
Uncertainty is one of those things which is tough to comprehend, especially if you are finding your self in a place where you want to ensure you are always in control. Are we able to control everything? Probably not. Would it be good to have the ability to control everything? Probably not either. Recently, I …
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What life could look like for you?
Being in recovery is hard, and often it feels like you are stuck in the grit of your illness. In the past days, I have found it very helpful to remind myself of my dreams and why I want to get better. Thinking about the future can be daunting, and it seems unpredictable, but there …
Am I the right size to be tube fed?
I want to write about something, some of you may have experienced. The below can apply to anyone of any size living with an eating disorder, as our self-perception is not always accurate. I am sharing this, as a person going through intensive eating disorder treatment in a bigger body. A lot can happen in …
Let’s talk relapse.
I am sure you have heard about recovery not always being a linear process. Learning that first hand has been a painful lesson. In this post, I am going to go deep and personal and tell you about my experience with this. Following my last admission, I thought I was on the right track. I …
I am more than this illness!
Having a chronic illness is challenging. The cloud of your symptoms is always lingering over your head, no matter if your illness is visible or not. Worry and anxiety always come hand in hand with stigma, and it certainly does not make it any easier to stay to find your way through life. Today I …
Binge Eating is real!
It is the unspoken side of many eating disorders. More often then not, heavy food intake restriction is accompanied by periods of binge eating. It’s a behaviour many people are very ashamed of. It hits you out of nowhere, this irresistible urge to eat. Eat whatever you can find or buy. Learning to delay, or …
What about Peer support in Eating Disorder Treatment?
Peer support in eating disorder recovery can be detrimental but also very triggering. Many inpatient and outpatient treatment programs are offering treatment in a group setting. In the following, I would like to look at the pro’s and con’s of peer support and how to protect yourself from potentially bad influences. Having peer support can …
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